An Elephant never forgets!

I, like many, grew up with the saying that an elephant never forgets, well sometimes you are so hurt by others that you too never forget. Whenever someone truly hurts us time does heal and it does indeed get better but the whole experience changes you and slowly chips away at your confidence.

I say this from experience, quite some time ago I was badly hurt by someone and although I've moved on since then I'm still affected by that time in my life. Although I wish it never happened I can also say that I learnt from this experience, and just like an elephant never forgets, I too never will. I use it as a constant reminder of what not to do and I feel stronger for moving past it all.

There is still a slight problem however, my self-esteem and self-worth. Over the years I've tried to deal with these issues but as we are all aware of,  it is way easier said than done.  I'm blessed to be surrounded by some great people who love and believe in me, who strive to help build my confidence back one way or another but the only person who can truly fix this problem is me. I wish I could wake up with a whole new attitude and perception of myself but sadly it doesn't work that way.

I still don't know how I am going to resolve this, if I find the magical solution I will be back on here to share this with you guys. Until then I'm going to keep my chin up and try not to let this bring me down. If only I had some off switch I could press whenever I need a break but sadly that's not how life works. The good as well as the bad things that happen to you shape you as a person and define who you are. Maybe I was meant to go through all this, why? I'm not sure yet but I'm sure I'll find out someday!